Laziness

Sometimes we find inspiration in the oddest places and sometimes we’re just too lazy to act upon it. That would be me today as I had a particularly delicious moment with a friend where conversation and company were just in a lovely harmony when BAM! For a moment I sit back in my chair with a smirk and go “Baby, you still got it. Oh yeah you do…” not that I really talk to myself that way but I came really damn close to it. All at once I wanted to get notes organized, I wanted to write, to add another excerpt of life here, to dream and pretend….and then I realized I should have made dinner like…an hour ago. It’s been a überbusy day and while I sit here exhausted, I’m content with all that I got done today…except the fact I never did finish or even really start that conversation with mom. Anybody know a good recipe involving “stew” pork? Yeah I don’t know either…maybe that’s why it was on sale – nobody knows what to do with it.

Anyhow, since I’m lazy and want to write and share some small part of myself, I’m going to be lazy. I did one of these with Sam a long time ago and found this other one I never did but am going to do…so goodbye playlist – we’re dragging out the big guns out and showing what messed up songs come up to describe aspects of my life.

1. How does the world see you? Goatwhore – Silence Marked By the Breaking of Bone

2. Will I have a happy life? Finntroll – Slaget Vid Blodsälv

3. What do my friends really think of me? Bal-Sagoth – To Dethrone the Witch-Queen of Mytos K’unn

4. Do people secretly lust after me? Trivium – A Gunshot to the Head of Trepidation

5. How can I make myself happy? Black the Sky - Where Dead Man Lost Their Bones

6. What should I do with my life? Powerman 5000 – Ultra-Mega

7. What is some good advice for me? Linkin Park – Breaking the Habit

8. How will I be remembered? Metallica - The Frayed Ends of Sanity

9. What is my signature dancing song? Pantera – Cowboys from Hell

10. What do I think my current theme song is? Bipolar – As I Bleed

11. What does everyone else think my current theme song is? Ulver – Wolf and Destiny

12. What song will play at my funeral? Bal-Sagoth – Summoning the Guardians of the Astral Gate

13. What type of men/women do you like? Filter – Hey Man, Nice Shot

14. What is my day going to be like? Sepultura - Territory

15. What will tomorrow bring? Type O Negative – Blood and Fire

I love how some of these songs fit in beautifully while others make no sense at all. Especially ones in languages I don’t speak or understand…in fact, I would be willing to bet at least two of those words aren’t even real.

Sound Track of the darque faerie

Opening Credits: Dödheimsgard – Fluency

Waking up: Finding Core – In the Sun

First Day at School: Dark Fortress – Baphomet

Falling In Love: Infernal War - Prelude to Infernal Purification

Fight Song: Big Business – Start Your Digging

Breaking Up: All the Brightness – Blanket of Bliss

Prom: Foo Fighters - Everlong

Life’s Okay: Hinder – Use Me

Mental Breakdown: Lacuna Coil - Cold

Driving: Ra - Fear

Flashback: Yellow Machinegun – Right or Left

Getting Back Together: Nasum – The Masked Face

Wedding: All Shall Perish – Never Ending War

Birth of Child: Wumpscut – Praise Your Fears

Final Battle: At the Gates – Slaughter of the Soul

Funeral Song: Nevermore – The River Dragon Has Come

End Credits: Warzone – Ground Zero

Ehh…some of these are nicely ironic at least?

Anyhow, I’m off to bed.

Tension

My neck’s knot has a tentacle that slithers along my spine

Each step taken sends it coiling about, digging into flesh and bone

Turning to an iron grip that brings me near to tears

Eyes close with a shuddered whimper as focus sets in

The rise of steam, the pummel of hot water as it coaxes

Soothing the sore, the tension to a higher state of relaxation

Just breathe, slow breaths

In through nose, out through mouth

And take in the clean scent of soap

Turn about and hold your breath

To let the deluge fall over your face

And shiver to the cold in back

For a moment a mother’s daughter

Laments at cluster of an adult break out

Clean and Clear then brush your teeth

Before smiling with wistfulness

Fond memory of an old scent

Madrinha used…uses? This lotion and now I do too

My bed harkens me to join it

To find solace and slumber

And the lavender field.

Please let me sleep

Not let it be

A question of not knowing

Do I dream too vivid?

Or lay and imagine

These things so weird

An old apartment building

Left instead of right

To want what is nearly the same

Heathens to the right

Animals down below

Gum as graffiti all on the wall

The dark is warmer than before

But do I sleep or lay awake?

And if I dream, why do I dream

Of cartoon bears that suddenly speak French.

Oh how and why did I understand?