...That the Joke was on Me....

How many of you guys get that line - that it's a song lyric?  I don't know that it's actually a reflection of things so much is that it's a song that sounds depressing to me and that, my friends, is now I'm feeling right now.  It's been super busy at work these days.  We had someone quit and that kinda bungled up the schedule and then last week, i got one day off (Friday) and was back to work the next day.  So we have me here today, just dying for some more time, which I will get in the form of a four day weekend. A MUCH needed one, I might add.

I really do like my job, even when people are a pain.  Gods, the stories I could tell you - particularly about a certain sports team that stayed with us.  But to be honest?  I just don't have the heart for it right now cause the last couple of days have been rough and I think it's my own doing.  I've been having issues with a particular process - I guess you could say that I've struggled with it from the start though it never got this out of hand.  I'm no longer so new that these mistakes are acceptable and it's become very frustrating.  For my boss. Trust me, I don't blame him in the least - Im' frustrated too and more than just a little disappointed in myself. 

I've doubled down on my notes, taking new ones and adding to my old ones as needed.  With my long weekend, I'm going to use the online training features to shore up my shakiness as well because I definitely need it. One of my biggest problems is that I simultaneously get ahead of myself and freak out, so my notes include this:

Take the time to look at things. 

To be certain of what you are doing and where your actions will take you.

I should have perhaps added stuff about staying calm and to remember to breathe. 

Ugh..maybe the joke IS on me.